I felt horrible all day today. I only felt better when I fell asleep, but that didn't benefit my productivity. I was suppose to go to campus for an exam review, but I couldn't muster up the energy to go.
It was around 9pm when I left my bedroom and went to the living room to do some reading and homework. I was really into my reading when my iPad gets a Facetime call from my brother. I ignored it because: 1. I looked terrible right now to be on camera and 2. I really wanted to power through ONE MORE CHAPTER before I stopped.
He called again.
I ignored again.
Then, I get a Facebook message. My brother was messaging me because my mom was worried sick about me and "had been trying to calling me for two days!"
What? When! I never saw this. I had left my phone in the other room so I wouldn't be distracted. Turns out, I had two missed calls from my mom within the last hour.
I called my mom and explained to her that I was reading for class and I was sorry I didn't have my phone near me to answer her. She was just glad to talk to me.
After I got off the phone, my brother called me again on Facetime.
I answered this time and talked some more with my mom and brothers. I told them how I was doing, homework and my life in Austin so far. They tried to convince me to go home soon, but I really don't know when I'll be able to.
Despite me feeling so bad all day, the 30 minutes on Facetime were great. I saw my mom and brothers and laughed for a little while we caught up. I felt bad not being able to tell them exactly when I'll be visiting Laredo. I don't want to admit it, but this is what's going to become of my home visits after I graduate. I'm never going to know and I suppose they'll become less frequent. It's heartbreaking. I really do miss my family.
Facetime is what we have now. This is how I get to see my mom. I hate to admit that how I keep in contact with my family solely depends on technology these days. It's all we've got so far, and if it works... well, I'm all for it.
I may miss them so much, but for now... Facetime will be my family time.